Category: life event

Trust in His ways

If there is someone who will never ever forsake you no matter what you have done, how dim is your past, how awful you feel inside, how dreadful life treats you, how small you think you are, HE will remain regardless. Our God is steadfast in everything. He Loves us more than we ever know and feel.

There came a point in my career that seems disrupting. I fret over the future loss of a job that I am hired. My boss never said a word “You are fired”. You got me wrong. I am a hardworking human creature, who wants to make a living to meet all means: to pay bills, support my family and satisfy living comfortably. A temporary stop to my tenure had to be done as i am not allowed to work with a license. Since i ended my old job, i have worked by butt out to meet all requirements for the new work but time and circumstance was not on my side, in my perspective. In this regard, I have predicted a longer forced vacation exhausting all of my savings. Honestly i got sad of the event, I thought this would be smooth sailing. I was wrong, I took it as a challenge to my persistence. But I cannot erase the mere fact that i said in the prayer about how i really felt, Yes i was devastated. But then again i held on to His promise that He will have my back and I know He will not allow anything which I cannot withstand. I prayed everyday for His grace to sustain me. I was gloomy on the day after my supposed to be last day at my job. I probably went to some place but deep inside i was sad.

Yes, It is okay to be sad. To feel upset, be angry, to be unproductive. We are human and it is justifiable to experience all of these. But we also have a choice and free will on what to do with the event. Will I continue sulking and do nothing or move forward, hope and continue living. As for me, i allowed myself to cry buckets of tears, pouring my heart out to the Lord. I have done everything a human can do legally to acquire what i need nevertheless it all boils down to waiting its issuance to work again. And i just said in prayer “Lord it is all in your hands, i really need the license but let your will be done not mine”. I have learned to surrender it to HIM.

On day 4 of being jobless, I was told by a friend that i could expedite the document. Good news indeed but then again i need to wait for 2 weeks for it to finish the process. This is better than waiting for 3 months. Then, came day 6 without work. A relative hook me up with a job the next day, not well-paying but at least i have something for gas and food. I should have been happy on securing a job. On the contrary, i felt so empty. I was awake, walking, breathing but felt lifeless; My worry consumed me. Next, i headed to my computer and tried my luck again with my papers. Surprisingly, right before my eyes were the soft copy file of what i have been waiting for. A lifeless human as i describe myself that time became overjoyed of a wonderful blessing, unexpected one. Next day, i got my permanent license, 7 business days early.

Remember that prayer I said, it is a form of putting my trust in the Lord. I know i am not perfect since i was really worried inside but speaking those words with hands lifted to Him conveyed the message that i needed help and that in my heart, i desire to have it soon but allowing Him to be in control.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6

All glory to Him, Jesus.

 

Brand new environment

I recently moved from a Big City to a more countryside state. Transferring my stuffs was tedious but thanks to relatives and friends, it was quick and smooth. When i was on the planning phase, i pictured myself in a bare apartment, with just a bed. I never longed for furniture in place. I said to myself, I will deal with what i have since I am just a newbie. Never thought of my in-laws giving me stuff to get settled in my new apartment. In a day, i got a complete bedroom and living room set up.

Never expecting of blessings to come is such a sweet surprise. I honestly feel being taken cared of by God. He uses instruments in the form of people around us. Sometimes, not just people who we know but strangers. 

Moreover, being in a brand new place is anxiety provoking to many but as for me, I like to discover what this state has to offer. Nevertheless, guidance from locals is a no brainer. Listening to their advises of which places to avoid, where good food is cooked, nearest shopping malls and grocery stores are some basics that i must know.

I look forward to more adventures in this state. And i know that i have a purpose to serve here. Welcome to Maryland, “America in miniature”, “Old Land State”, “Free State”.